Where should I be?

Am I sure? I am ready to be leaved? Or still I feel concern over myself? Surely thing about me is you. It's too hard and hurt to forget everything about you due to you have brought me everything I need. I still remember how much you love me even sometimes you always keep me crying but only one word from your mouth always keep me feeling well and missing every good thing about you. Just now, I love you more than I can say. But I need to limit myself to where I am. I have found how you really think of me but that's not how I have though of you. Thing will not supposed to be stable and you must back up everything to where and who you used to be. I am now totally happy to see you are on that way and also more happy to leave you to that way.

I am seeing other guys who is able to be loved by me and also able to love me. Unfortunately, you and him are in the same condition that keep me hurt to make decision so where I am supposed to be?

You guy are different and treated me different too. He is the one I feel I was waiting for and the way he has treated me is what i have wished too. I do thanks the world that let me see him but it seem to be so late. I know you sometimes respect my decision making when i told you I love him but i don't dare to face that he will never ever taking my love while i have told myself I can't walk on this way together with him and hurt other else.

Won't you tell me how to do? I never wish to break other's heart even i always being hurt by other and I also can't break his heart cos he really can't make decision. I scare to turn off the light and crying for him. Sometimes, I long to forget him and you.