Let me be with U for the rest of your life

After the big rain, I am fresh. After our misunderstanding, you understand. thanks for being there for ME. My Honey ! you leave when I am lost the way
and come back to lead me finding my way. You are more than everything for ME...Honey ! I love U.
My Hero ! I do appreciate myself of finding U. The best friend in life. Enjoy a trip abroad and safe trip back here.

you still my brothers

We born together in our good looking family where we have grown and enjoyed the lives together. You are more than any other around me... the best thing we are the same is that we have the same Mum and Dad who always fill out what we miss in lives.

One thing, I noted about our perspectives, Even we are from the same parents but we really don't have one option together. I really can't blame you guys but myself.....Still I lack some part to take care of you?
I feel I've done enough as being a sister. I know parents and I did not spend much time nearby you and we are sorry for that but the point is that what we have done just for U both.

I hope you still remember when we were young, how we live so happily in our warm little house?
We have the very cute mum who always come up with good advise and sweet care to all of us. We have such generous dad who always fill our lives with fun and smile...They both are our everything.

When you guy were little kids, I still remember how smart and hard working you were. You even help thing around and tell us that you will live to be the good person for the world and the family. I see you were crying when when you have found you had done the bull shit thing for us but we are so happy to see you this way cos you wish you wont repeat the pain to yourselves.

But now you guy just being fool..you are no longer the good brothers I have had. I write it down for you cos I am afraid one day I leave and you can't see how different your life have been through and how you been fool?
We have no more word to explain you, we can just only keep you on where you want to be cos we cannot force you to be on the way we set. We are not supposed to blame or take care of you for the rest of your lives but we hope you are no longer useless to yourselves. You still my beloved brothers.

Brother ! I Hate Hers

Since I grow up till now, I never live in peace. I never understand the feeling of being honesty care from such a relative like them. Mum got 5 siblings and she is number 4 and she is in the middle of the 3 daughters, older aunt and younger aunt. I still remember when I was young, our 3 families really in good relation cos we 3 are living closely together.

I was living with older aunt and other 5 cousins of older aunt's kids. I was treated very difference and I found I was difference from their kids... I don't complain even sometime I was fight to stay under the sun light but the grateful feeling I never forget however I used to eat their rice. With the poor family condition, my parents went away for business. I hard to be taking care but I can live in the house which take care of me from the rain. I feel that enough.


When I was 8, I went to the market and help my mum business. I learned to understand how my family condition had forced me to be strong. I seem to be a kid who pretend to be mutual. Step to the age of 18, when I was in high school. I spent my time very competitive and be the one who is ready to fight cos of my both aunts had killing my happiness. I push to learn in order to be the top of the other relative due to I was always be compared and criticize if I could not build up myself. I was always in the glare of critical way from both of them.
Sometime, I felt I can't breathe. I never grow in the way of advise and really care but just in criticize, Never anyone answer me why??? I also never ask, Why ?
I have to understand what I should do. What is right and wrong. I feel so hurt but I never ask for reason. I am different from other sisters and cousins. I am always been catch for something wrong but never been admire when I did a great thing.

Only mum, She lead me strong. bite my mouth and keep it alone. She always said: Because she does not have enough ability, she can't provide what I want so I have to ask them for the used thing they threw away to used after. I had produce such a great result and be the top of other but I still under the name of beggar in their way of thinking.

I never angry mum but myself, Mum was looking down by her beloved siblings cos of me. If I am stronger, I can take care of her. Mum tried so hard to keep me strong with the way she protect...She loves me. Mum always be like a sister and friend, she always share sadness and fun and those are what I have learnt from her. She is such a great lady who always give up everything for the family.


Is that the taste of life ??? I will not ask the reason why but the result will show.
How painful the relative I have faced? How they do that to my family ? We born from the same parents, why we have so different concepts to grow.....I will keep remember how you treated me, Aunts. I must always remember what have you done to my family ? And I will give you back what you have done to my family.
Thanks for teaching this kind of tricky lessons ever. I do appreciate.

yoU arE thE onE I waS waitinG For

Once again I realize when I have found I lost my smile. I was living in the world where I saw myself in trouble...No body know. I was a very unsuccessful lady and bed luck. I was always lay in the ring but I have to make sure there is no sound then I feel I was in too much pressure.

One day we met, the day we found each other. You come to warm my soul, lead me up to grow and mend my broken heart. I miss everything from the start but I promise myself not to ask for anything.

First, I don't feel that was a feeling of love, and I feel that was a feeling of being a good friends somehow you were there...Many night had passed and I was always be the last for you even somewhere but in your heart...I am warmth to be there. I know I love you NOT because you fed me up or you support me. Because you fill out the sentimental need I missed so far.

Just now, I am in middle of the way I am and who I am. I am sorry I am really in difficulty.
I need some space for breathe and I also need you there with me. Honey, I am still waiting for U.

Yesterday

Would you please grow up?
Would you please understand me?
Would you please make me happy before I leave?
Still you remember how sweet our love used to be?

the way we be together, the way you take care of me, the way I make u smile and how we learn to be. The smile you lead me feel and the way we do. The joke we share and the thing we prepare for each other, even the movie we see together. The touch of your lip and the way you hold me closer...everything just yesterday. I still feel it just yesterday even now you are away, I need you. without a commitment, you will not about to me. Because of your strong commitment, that's why we can be. Why you have to give it up, honey? I know You Love Me.
I really don't know whether is that our happiness of seeing the one you love in pain. I am deeply in pain...I am so miserable in vain...Baby ! if you wish to leave our memories in blank. I am really afraid that it will over time when you're back. You are not a kid anymore, why don't you start to build the thing up from now. it's time, dear. If you are not ready now, so tell me when? we start to grow that love together and I still give you chance. I love you. Everyday, I love you. Please stop being ignorant to that na...I confess
I love you.

It's Time

When there is a will, there must be a way. All I have spoken and encourage you to be strong.
I am thinking of how we are doing to keep the way we are. I really never run away if u are in trouble and I am commit to be your only one. Something got a hold of us and we changed. I lead myself home and cry...You lead your way with them and smile. So we found we are not the right person for each other.

I been taking respond on the way we grow.
I have kept chance and every minute with you as the diamond.
I always keep telling that I need U.
I make be fun when we are together.
I share thing around me to make u trusted.
I've been earning our memories to make u feel warm.
I leave the myself to make u strong.
But We still cant find way to carry on and I found I have been doing enough thing for us while u are the same.

Once I realize, You change our time and hide. You said that is your habit of having other for fun and being cheating just for fun but that's not what I can accept. There will not be any regret to make me carry on and I will always be strong facing the way to let you go.

Be there where you wish to be,
I am always supported u, darling.