Brother ! I Hate Hers

Since I grow up till now, I never live in peace. I never understand the feeling of being honesty care from such a relative like them. Mum got 5 siblings and she is number 4 and she is in the middle of the 3 daughters, older aunt and younger aunt. I still remember when I was young, our 3 families really in good relation cos we 3 are living closely together.

I was living with older aunt and other 5 cousins of older aunt's kids. I was treated very difference and I found I was difference from their kids... I don't complain even sometime I was fight to stay under the sun light but the grateful feeling I never forget however I used to eat their rice. With the poor family condition, my parents went away for business. I hard to be taking care but I can live in the house which take care of me from the rain. I feel that enough.


When I was 8, I went to the market and help my mum business. I learned to understand how my family condition had forced me to be strong. I seem to be a kid who pretend to be mutual. Step to the age of 18, when I was in high school. I spent my time very competitive and be the one who is ready to fight cos of my both aunts had killing my happiness. I push to learn in order to be the top of the other relative due to I was always be compared and criticize if I could not build up myself. I was always in the glare of critical way from both of them.
Sometime, I felt I can't breathe. I never grow in the way of advise and really care but just in criticize, Never anyone answer me why??? I also never ask, Why ?
I have to understand what I should do. What is right and wrong. I feel so hurt but I never ask for reason. I am different from other sisters and cousins. I am always been catch for something wrong but never been admire when I did a great thing.

Only mum, She lead me strong. bite my mouth and keep it alone. She always said: Because she does not have enough ability, she can't provide what I want so I have to ask them for the used thing they threw away to used after. I had produce such a great result and be the top of other but I still under the name of beggar in their way of thinking.

I never angry mum but myself, Mum was looking down by her beloved siblings cos of me. If I am stronger, I can take care of her. Mum tried so hard to keep me strong with the way she protect...She loves me. Mum always be like a sister and friend, she always share sadness and fun and those are what I have learnt from her. She is such a great lady who always give up everything for the family.


Is that the taste of life ??? I will not ask the reason why but the result will show.
How painful the relative I have faced? How they do that to my family ? We born from the same parents, why we have so different concepts to grow.....I will keep remember how you treated me, Aunts. I must always remember what have you done to my family ? And I will give you back what you have done to my family.
Thanks for teaching this kind of tricky lessons ever. I do appreciate.