U & ME

I am always the one who come up with full encouragement to myself facing any issue or how hard my life gonna be. Since May 2009 until now, I have changed my life to stay on the ground where I feel this is the way I am however I hurt my mental mind set but I start to learn the new lesson of be happy with what I have, shortly, I am totally change myself to be the one who never ask for anything.

People may feel how stupid a normal girl like me, grow to ask for nothing? but you know why ? I told myself this is more than enough to what i never have before. The real thing that I am surely ask for is treated me just like i treated you.

Through 2 years, thing just going well when i have put my real heart to understand you and I wish to be understood too. The last thing for the 2 years is You understand nothing from me.
guess how I feel now? First, I told myself, may be we grow from different culture and ethic of thinking that's why you always come up with stupid judgment or something i feel cos you think of me like i do that's why we always don't give space for each other.

I already know you will never have time to listen to anything going on me each day due to even once in 2 months to talk to you but how i can always detail thing from day to day cos something I don't do it but I lie to say YES. I just want to keep our second together not to keep you asking or wondering but i would get it to make you keep silence. The truth is that I hate being judged and put the blame on but how can I complain while you never put your heart on mine to ask what I want. I am telling you one thing you hurt me the most is not your responding which never do anything for me BUT the way you keep me as a little pet that something you have forgotten that I am nearby your bad.

YES ! I also need to be cared and loved as other people around you however my mouth never ask but my feeling does. You never give me space but you asking for it. I've been told to give up while you are the first who lead me to get. Imagine, how this 2 years I have treated you so well????? How I keep the corner between us to close ?
Don't just say I am the best girl among the million you have found and say sorry we are too late. That's more than enough to me. More than what i have estimated that you would come up with this kind of feeling to me. Sure ! that's enough. I still never complain anything so let it be.